Don't hold yourself like that, you'll hurt your knees...

Today has been well and truly the most interesting day I've had in some time. I finally found the utility to access my webcam, so I've been making silly videos, recordings and the best ever MSN display pictures.

I contacted somebody that I didn't think I ever would, again. I removed the blogs regarding the whole situation, because if I could delete them without a second thought, I figured that maybe now was the time. And he apologized. And as much as some people wouldn't think that is enough, it is enough for me. I never, ever expected an apology for any of the goings-on. I never thought that he would come out and admit that he was wrong (not saying I'm perfect...). I don't think he understands quite how much it meant to me for him not to blow me off when I messaged him (the title was reply not required, in case he didn't want me contacting him...). I know that he has moved on. I am genuinely happy for him. He seems in such a better space now. Which makes me wonder if it was my fault in the first place... But it doesn't even merit thinking about now. But I thought I'd share that little bit of progress.

I'm trying to reconnect with people. To forgive, to be kind, to be loyal and make the effort to keep in touch with my friends and family regularly. I went through a long stage of isolation and I lost a few bonds I had made with people that I should have held close to my heart. I think the next step in life is to rebuild the foundations, and grow from there. Can't make progress without laying the right foundations. Though, just so the universe is aware, I will be very careful who I choose to help me through the next part of my life - If I choose the wrong people, I'll be starting back at foundations again in a few years time, if that. So positive, sensible and compassionate are the 3 guidelines. But how do I do that and still finish course? Dedication, motivation and discipline are what the next week will be. I'll post again when I have finished all my assignments and I'm free from homework and my LIFE. =P

- Jordan.