There's no point trying to find a title for this.

As you may or may not have figured out, the person who apologized to me was the man I fell in love with so long ago. It's all my fault for contacting him. And now I don't think I can hold it together, which is stupid because it's my own fault. I shouldn't have let myself get upset about him moving on. I knew it was going to happen. But not so quickly. I knew what was going on not long after we broke up, but it's kinda only just hit home that I have been completely replaced. In not even a month, I might add. And where I thought we were getting close to in our relationship is the point he had got to with somebody else in under a year. His baby is due in February. And as stupid as I feel for letting it get to me, I can't get past this one thing - I thought we were going to be together forever. I thought he was my soulmate. And now it's hard to believe that he ever loved me. I can't believe I was so stupid. I was SO STUPID. Why didn't I leave after I came back from Perth even the second time. I should have known that this is where it would end up. I only held onto him by a thread back then. I wish this feeling would stop. My mind and heart should be cautious of him. I should know this by now. But my first instinct is to trust because I'm still fucking in love with him. I thought I would have healed by now but I haven't and the wounds are now fresh again. I want to die.